What more can I say when ladyluck is not by your side, you have to depend on yourself then, which often came out with no outcome. How bad isn't it.

Sadness could be hidden, but happiness can't (that's for me)
Miracle is not a thing for me, it's motivation but I can't feel it now

Enough of random-ness.
I'm tired already, both emotional and physical.

Update tomorrow, goodnight all.