Am I always too kind or just being so stupid.

Just thinking about it. People are always like that, whenever they need you, they are treating you so differently.
Makes you easy to believe their words and then fall for their trap (maybe it's just me).

Isn't this the world we are living in. People making use of each other just because either you are too stupid to trust or you are just pure kind heart-ed enough.

I feel that im too stupid or you can say, i don't have the heart to reject people's request, even if I don't really like it. I feel that im treating myself like shit sometimes. I feel sad. I feel so lost. When can I stand up for myself, I don't know. I guess it's my habit. I like to be a listening ear to the people I care about. I'm willing to do what I can to make them feel better, at least a little.

But when I need mine, I don't know who to turn to. Not that they are not there for me or what (they are there for me always I believe), but I just don't like to pour my problems to people who already have their own problems, is like adding on to theirs which makes me feel kind of bad and selfish? (it's my thinking only). And I thought I can feel better with it..

I have my good friends, a good family, a good boyfriend, sometimes I wonder, what more can I ask for. It's speechless you know. I feel stress if I can't give them my best. And Im really trying very hard to do so, sorry if I give attitude sometimes and sorry if im not sensible enough.